You want this, yes…no…yes?
Keep this internal dialogue going back and forth.
It’s not procrastination if you keep the idea alive.
Open the door. Sunshine hits your toes and marks the precipice.
You’ve crossed the gap before, you can again.
You take one step backwards before you imagine a hand on your back. The imaginary hand gives you more of a gentle nudge than a push.
You’ve got this.
You feel some momentum build. You step over the gap. You’re officially outside for the first time in months.
Well that’s enough for today.
But it’s too late. The imaginary hand has closed the door. You were never going to do this without a helping hand.